Sunday, May 15, 2011

2011


For all I know, senior year was the best
Definitely most fun compared to the rest

New heights, late nights, 
long talks, romantic walks,
notes on cars, under the stars,
flashing lights, 12 rewrites
weekends seemed to reunite

now we wait for graduation
the center of our anticipation

honestly our time flew by
so this should not just be a goodbye

From August till now, it went too fast
These last senior events will make the memories last
OED, white noise, and garage sales were a blast
SDLC, basketball, and purples day seem far past

Championships, plays, and baseball
We left mark for every class to recall

11 means so much more to me
I cant imagine what this class would be

28.5 minutes brought the glee
Jordan ingrained an instant memory
For days and weeks didn’t seem so long
When he was rapping his FFB song

I hope our class will be lifelong
We are the core- so damn strong 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

LAST

Its weird to think the last of everything is happening so quickly. Today I watched Tony and Matt play their last baseball game at home. I already went to the last dance performance. BSC has pretty much already transitioned to next year's exec board. I've already begun working with next year's Diversity club. Today was the last Tuesday of senior classes. Today was my last AP. Today was my last standardized test...until the MCAT. Today was probably the last time Ill wear my Buckley red army shirt. It's weird to think how we have grown to be a family, Buckley our home, our comfort zone, our safe haven. Next year- ambiguity begins. Maybe its good to shock us immediately but I dont think Ill ever have the same connection as a Trojan, like I do a Griffin. Trojans dont get Outdoor Ed, Trojans dont get to walk around campus and say hi to anyone they come in contact with because they know every student/teacher/staff member by name, Trojans wont understand Jan 28, Trojans wont get the jokes about "Buckley fail vs. real Fail", Trojans wont get the familiarity that I've been privileged to be apart of for the past twelve years. Trojans wont ever get the true meaning of the Class of 2011 to me, but I know you will.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Blog #3 College Packing List

  1. Krav Maga skills
  2. Protein Bars
  3. Desire to learn
  4. First Aid Kit
  5. Vision for Med School
  6. Space saver hangers
  7. Emergen-C
  8. Shoe Rack
  9. Beef Jerky
  10. Mini-fridge
  11. A lock so my roomie doesnt steal my clothes
  12. Office Supplies
  13. Trail Mix
  14. Visibility in the classroom
  15. Success
  16. Munchies
  17. Pictures
  18. Laptop
  19. Drawers from the container store
  20. Shower flip flops

Blog #2 Senior Projects


I’m really looking forward to Senior Projects. It’s the perfect time to get some career-based experience in a medical clinic that I hope to some day work at. However, I’ve heard it’s weird when you get to sleep in and not go to school on a Wednesday morning. I'm looking forward to the presentation but wonder who I'll be paired with, but probably Molefi. I’m slightly confused on what were “graded” on and where this grade impacts us, but I’m sure that will all be clarified in the weeks to come. For now, I can wait to wake up and feel like a practicing physician at only 18!

Blog #1 (Emailed) College Poem

Football game
Victory to fame
Greek life
Less strife
Noon class
Must pass
Psycho roomate?
Exchange rate?
Cheerleading
Never speeding
No drugs
Cause were not thugs
Bad food
We are screwed
Transportation
Desperation
Education
Celebration

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

When Anorexia was trendy...


Some do Sara Lee, they do Jenny Craig. I guess they like the idea of being constantly sick, constantly tired, constantly cold and constantly hungry. I guess that they don’t mind becoming an introvert and anti-social. I guess they want to be lonesome and timid. I guess they want to obsess over every calorie they consume. I guess they don’t care that malnutrition can cause permanent organ damage, which can have severe repercussions in the future, where conditions could threaten one’s life. - I guess it doesn’t bother them that starvation can damage their brain and heart. I guess they don’t care about the risk of irregular heart rhythms and heart failure. I guess they think insipid complexion is attractive, as pale yellow skin is obviously the new sun-kissed golden tan skin. (Just ask Mary-Kate.) I guess the piercing and demeaning looks people give them, don’t bother them at all. I guess they won’t mind being defeated by their nemesis; I guess they won’t mind being dead.           
Fat: a very scary three-letter word that evokes women of their desires and discontentment of their body image. If gluttony is one of the seven deadly sins, then anorexia should be the eighth sin being the other extreme on the spectrum. Women struggle to mold themselves into an idealistic and artificial identity, as they claim to need to have the “perfect” body. Without the perfect body you cant wear this. Without the perfect body you cant wear those. Without the perfect body you cant do this. Clearly in America the obsession has become a craving. Body Fat Index. Cholesterol. Trans fat. Calories. Sugar. Total fat. Saturated fat. Sodium. Total Carbohydrates. Dietary Fiber. Sugar.
It is estimated that there are currently eight million anorexics in this country alone, primarily constituting this number are women striving for a “perfect” body, much like that of Barbie doll’s. We can't help but stare at beauty, yet we laugh at the means by which some people pursue it. We cannot accept beauty as itself. In other words, we do anything to mold us into the superficial “perfect” image we desire to be.
Unfortunately, anorexia on the West coast has become synonymous for third world country starvation.
It’s a disease, it’s a pandemic, it’s an epidemic. It’s called anorexia. In our modern Western American culture, fatness is seen as an outward sign of neglect of the body and thinness is viewed as a virtue that requires obsessive attention to self-control.  Why is it then, that in the Renaissance Era, a woman was worshiped by the curves she had, but now women are acknowledged by the number of ribs they can see?
  I can hardly bare to watch the sorry individuals who parade about feeling that they have to be skinnier than the skinniest person in Africa. These starving children in Africa simply have no choice. Across the world, there is an average span of life expectancy of 48 years with Sierra Leone having an overall life expectancy of 34 years. Eating disorders, once considered culture- bound syndromes, have emerged in cultures that did not formerly value slenderness, following introduction of western media and in the context of rapid social change and unrest.  

Now, women are rewarded for being the size of a stick by being advertised in magazines, on the internet, and on the news. Soon, the smallest size will no longer be an xs but rather an xxxxxs with xxxs waist. Why try to wait around for a Lindsay Lohan to go down to a zero-zero when one can fly 20 hours to Nairobi. Exploitation is there for the taking, but can the media be absolved from exploiting such young women? Why should we hog all the food when nobody eats it? We should send the excess provisions to those begging for the bare survivals in life. Why in America, a country that has earned its independence for 200 years, do we give up food and out of our own volition choose starvation as a lifestyle?

Regardless, I cannot help but gawk at the magazines that advertise such scrawny and waif-like women. What is the point of being anorexic? So you can be the skinnier than the skinniest model? For popularity gain? To attract a sexier man who is dating your competition: those skinny awful models? Trust me when I say that men would much rather hold their dead grandmothers bag of bones than their girlfriend who crumbles to bones as he merely pats her. Do these anorexic women desire the harsh lifestyle that anorexia necessitates? Of course, because being anorexic is cool. I guess its cool to always be sick, tired, lethargic, and cold. Being antisocial is cool.

Anorexia is the epitome of identity. As my first request I ask that the media ceases on effecting the progression of this negative feminine body image. With heightened competitions with so many trying to attract so few, women try to be thinner than their opponents and thus try to be more attractive in a society where outward appearance dictates social stature.

My panacea, which would ultimately solve all starvation problems in the entire world is that once these women can see every single ribs piercing their skin, as well as their chest cavity and knees bulging from their body, they will be satisfied. The only fat that they might have left would be ear lobe fat. As ear lobe fat would irritate them, we could hire a company that could turn their ear lobe fat into delicious, juicy steaks for these children and adults starving in Africa, the Middle East and Asia.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Asch Paradigm


What’s the deal with conformity? Everybody says its bad, but could it be good? Take WW 2 for example, conformity was expected because nonconformity was fatal. Clearly, conformity was a necessary good. For decades there was a superior notion that encouraged humans to be moralistic and righteous creatures and thus conformity provided the means to advance God's wishes. Though this belief was present in many monolithic practices, it clearly underscored the freethinker and subjected individual experiences and impulses to respect for divinity and attainment of "perfection".
So what's so bad about conformity? Why does the outcast have to always be the hero? In Brain and Behavior we studied psychologist Asch. The "Asch Paradigm" was a series of experiments that demonstrated an individual’s response to group pressure. The participants were asked to compare the lengths of 3 different lines. Expected to announce their answers aloud, the group answers a few questions correctly and then started saying incorrect answers that seemed slightly ambiguous. An example of the questions asked was which line is longer A or B? The pressure to conform, even to the wrong choice, seemed to overrule individuality. Asch, as I did, expected that most people would refuse to conform to a wrong answer, but when surrounded by others who agreed on the incorrect choice, participants too voiced the incorrect response. This discovery reveals the power that even a dissenting minority can have. When the participants were asked about their decision making process, the subjects attributed their performance to their own misjudgment or "poor eyesight".

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Sophia Vergara

 “Barbie Doll” tells the pathetic story of a young girl who goes through life with self-hatred due to her physical appearance. Since birth, this "girlchild" is exposed to the expectations of society and encounters the harsh realities of not meeting those expectations. The need to live up to the world’s idea of beauty incites years of severe self scrutiny that suppresses her self confidence. Therefore, the desperate girl chooses to live a restricted life that she assumes will lead to others' happiness. The pressure placed on the protagonist of “Barbie Doll” to look and act according to society’s expectations ultimately leads to her suicide.
Unfortunately, this pressure to conform to society’s ideal image still distorts the feminine self-image. In the PEOPLE magazine edition that was published right after the Academy Awards, stars were interviewed about their diet plans, workout options, and overall ways to stay healthy- clearly women are still socialized. As Sophia Vergara from Modern Family said "Because I'm Latin Im EXPECTED to be a little more plump and more voluptuous, so I don't have to be really skinny. I think THEY want me with a little bit of meat." When does this stereotypical, societal, and psychopathic torture end?

Streets of India

Curiosity was Marlow's opponent and mine too when The Streets of India Cafe caught my eye. Im adventurous when taste testing and one would undeniably say that I  love food so it seemed natural to want to meander into this street corner cafe. I guess Marlow and I share that in common because we relish in exploration and discovery. And sure enough the cafe was no longer a heart of darkness but rather a mine of flavor. Just as the jungle encouraged Marlow to transgress his moral boundaries to satisfy his curiosity, Streets of India encouraged me to transgress my comforting savory expectations to satisfy by oral fixations. From samosas to dosas, Encino's Streets of India knows how to do it up. It's the valley's newest hotspot. Modern, simple, new, clean, family owned, Nice pictures on the walls, and a couple of LCD TVs playing Bollywood videos. The owners are amazingly friendly, taking the time to tell me about all the food, its origin, and their own family history. It's a mix of Northern and Southern Indian flavors…. so I usually just order a bunch of things so I can sample and have leftovers. 
Their Samosas are perfectly crispy and have a tasty potato/pea/spice filling, but their dosas are even more impressive and HUUGGGEEEE!! They arrive with dipping sauce and coconut chutney and they are everything your dosa loving self could dream of. Lots of flavorful potato and spice filling, that perfect flakey crispness….and again, like the other food, very light on the oil. Dosas at other places sometimes get soggy really quickly due to the oil content but NOT here. The owners explained their food as being "Healthy Indian food"-  vegan and flavorful without being overly spiced or heavy on sauces. With that said, will you travel into the Heart of India?

Monday, March 7, 2011

Intro to Metamorphosis


The fear of alienation, desire to get along, and other unspoken pressures provide sufficient reasons for conformity. In Kafka’s novella, he describes the emotional, social, and psychological repercussions of Gregor Sampsa’s physical transformation. Because he is no longer able to financially support his family and resembles a vermin, Gregor feels increasingly isolated. Through Metamorphosis, Kafka conveys his anxiety towards society’s eagerness to conform, the ultimate driving force behind the alienation of individuals. As an orthodox Jewish boy living in Echo Park, growing up with the familial expectation that he would earn a living by practicing medicine, my grandfather, Stanley Zusman D.P.M., could surely relate to the extreme conformity he faced as a teenager. When questioned about his need to socially fit in, he recalled boot camp when he entered the army. This to me, offered the clearest example of conformity as necessary and non-conformity as fatal. Therefore, conformity provides refuge for those who seek to masque their insecurities and desire to equalize, but also is a mechanism which controls the herds effectively.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Conformity in the Classroom

The classroom is the breeding ground for conformity, expecting all students to arrive at the same conclusions, analyze the same information, and suppress opinion until the bell rings. I relate this scenario to bee societies, in which the queen bee feeds her workers (all genetically related) food which suppresses individuality and selfishness, coercing them to cooperate for the advancement of their group rather than selfish interests. Clearly, conformity provides the best outcome for this lifestyle.
Therefore, maybe Buckley's system doesn't seem too horrible.... After all, we all end up on a more level playing field and end up with hundreds of community service hours, the intellectual techniques having taken 10 AP's, an acceptance letter from Harvard, and great money-making careers,  but at whose expense? In this way I agree that elementary children should engage in more fostered and structured learning whereas, upper school students should be expected to have developed their critical thinking abilities and thus form opinions and perspectives on their own.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

#1 P. 1014 and #4 P. 1018

Kuper dramatizes the illustrations, background, and facial expressions in order provide fertile ground for humor.Through hyperbolic images, he encourages his viewers to feel remorse and sympathy for Gregor, a brilliant and genuinely good- hearted man, jailed in the body of a impotent vermin. Page 995 is just one image that directly reflects my preconceived notions about Metamorphosis. Through Kafka's diction, I have always imagined Gregor as a human-sized bug (not a tiny insect) awkwardly lying face up in bed, not knowing what to do with all of his new limbs. I love Kuper's addition of the alarm clock right on the bedside table reminding the reader of Gregor's old routine lifestyle and the early mornings he had to rise in order to catch the train as a traveling salesman. Often times, alarm clocks are also reminders of our limitations. For Gregor, it might serve as a physical reminder that he is running out of time (death approaching or he ran out of time in his human life), that he is late for work and now having to deal with the employer's consequences and the new consequences he'll have to face as a bug, or that he has failed in his life's task (financial provider).Kuper's choice to use black and white was expected for me. Color always influences the part of the human brain that signals hormonal (and thus emotional) responses, impacting how we initially react and respond. Hence when people "see red" or are "green with envy" or are "stuck in the blues" or "in the pink". It's amazing, but color really does manipulate human emotion. Black and white images also evoke emotional responses such as nostalgia, bleakness, and sentiment. Many times, we feel that black and white photography is devoid of emotional indicators, but instead Kuper captures eternity and endurance of the story, the morals, and the simplicity. Kuper encourages his viewers to think abstractly, provoked by thought and subtlety. 

Monday, February 21, 2011

Kafka Post (After being sick)


Metamorphosis magnifies and satisfies the necessity for eavesdropping. Though modern society views this means of interaction as regressive, rude, unprofessional, and oftentimes evil, Gregor uses eavesdropping as a means of human connection. Because his family starts neglecting him, increased especially when the lodgers arrive, he resorts to listening to what his family has to say about him. Overhearing his mother repulsed by his form and his father in disbelief of his son’s metamorphosis, Gregor fully recognizes his traumatic rejection by his family and his housekeeper too! Though detrimental and often times painful, our society has become one of casual eavesdropping. Social networking has become the hub of personal, pathetic, entertaining, and instant updates on what people are saying or doing and what they have seen someone else do. This constant sharing of news clearly devalues privacy. Undeniably through generations and culture, our private behavior has now become public. Even though eavesdropping damages his self-esteem at times, Gregor hardens his self-protection by learning what his family thinks of him. As society has proved, hearing the truth maintains order and safety. Therefore, Gregor takes advantage of this evolved communication, even at the expense of his ultimate demise.His story proves that the victim of eavesdropping is no longer the eavesdropper, but rather it’s the bystanders who can’t escape the words overheard. What might have seemed private is now thrown into his face, and like Gregor, the unspeakable are harmed, shamed, and destroyed. 

Monday, January 24, 2011

HOD


Joseph Conrad was consumed with writing about the human condition and the underlying circumstances that drive humans to do the things they do. He recognized early on that the psyche can be an enhancer, a redeemer, and a destroyer. Heart of Darkness is not only a tale of Marlow’s self-discovery in the Congo, but one which exposes and redefines morality, amorality, and immorality. This moral ambiguity is a common thread throughout Marlow’s story deriving from his inconsistent moral standards relying on the activity of societal checks and cultural norms. On the other hand, Kurtz neither survives nor returns from the heart of darkness because he takes advantage of his surrounding and thus suffers from moral regression. Kurtz therefore represents the effect of Freud’s “uncontrollable personal needs” acting as the physical representation of Marlow’s unfulfilled desires.

Friday, January 21, 2011

HOD Question


Kurtz neither survives nor returns from the heart of darkness because he takes advantage of his surrounding. Using the ivory, human skulls, and the natives to exert his domination, Kurtz’s mentality is regresses. On the other hand, Marlow had societal checks on him so he was able to survive in the heart of darkness and come back as a “changed man”.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

HoD Psychological Journey


Marlow begins his journey into the “Heart of Darkness” by creating a thick and ambiguous atmosphere. As a reader, I notice that the only things he had secured were his mission to meet Kurtz and his acute awareness and intelligence that would get him there. Consistently, Marlow makes comparisons between England and Africa, reminding the reader of their missions manifested by polarized attitudes. Faced with death, helplessness, and hunger, Marlow questions his leadership abilities and his existence on the mission, while having to confirm his morals every step of the way. For this reason, he admires the Chief Accountant for succeeding in adverse conditions. The Accountant's acceptance of responsibility motivates Marlow to reflect on his progress, but also to recognize the torture and mental pain inflicted by colonizers who claim to be bringing "light".
As Marlow travels further and further into the continent, he digs deeper into his conscience and that of Africa's inhabitants. As his sole purpose and psychological desire is to merely meet Kurtz, Marlow understands that the challenges he is faced with can best be navigated with his moral compass. That is why Marlow begins to see the importance of situational analysis.
The reader's journey into the "Heart of Darkness" is fulfilled by Marlow's unexpressed thoughts. By the choices he makes, Marlow conveys his personal principles to his readers, leaving them with a colourful tapestry of his subconscious, stung by memories of the Congo and exasperated by his hopes to meet his idol.






HoD P. 430 #6

This portrait strikes me as a woman bringing light to darkness, creating a path for those who follow behind her. At further glance, however, the woman's blind sight reminds the observer that her purpose is to lead the way without bias, judgment, or preference. Can this be true? Does the blindfold represent her lack of knowledge instead? In other words, it is the blind leading the blind into deeper darkness. Marlow will reveal this "dark" mystery. 



Monday, January 3, 2011

HoD P. 429 #2


Marlow opens his tale by insisting that the men reflect on the trials and tribulations of the Romans traveling from Europe ages ago. Appalled by the barbaric inhabitants, repulsive lifestyle, and depressing weather, the Romans’ endured a great deal for their current conditions because of their “Conquering mentality.” Hence the parallels drawn to Marlow’s story, one of colonizers seeking the African adventure. However, Marlow distinctly separates the Romans from himself by recalling their greedy objectives. I believe this challenge of taking what is necessary for self-indulgence rather than survival will become prominent in his personal narration into the Congo.  The story also suggests how the “Power of the situation” prevails, justifying man’s voracity, exposed by the pressures of endurance.